Ahh i miss Blogging...
There used to be a time when i couldn't go a week without posting some garbage on this thing....but these days i can't seem to write anything...donno why...
Things have changed in the past few months, for the better or worse i'm not yet sure. Theres this speech by Steve Jobs i keep going back to...something about connecting the dots..wait i'll get the excerpt: "...you can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backward..." So i'll get back to you in about 10 years or so and let you know :D
All of my friends are employed now...trainees at major software firms. For them, free time has become a luxury...as for me, time is all i have. I'm in this state of eternal "whateverness". Its pretty daunting to hear them talk about their work and lifestyles...projects, requirement gathering, client meetings, code review, time sheets and of course pay-days...
They've all "grown up". They contribute to society, pay taxes and talk about stocks and mutual funds. All i know about Mutual Funds is that "they are subject to market risk, we have to read the offer document carefully before investing". I'm happy for my friends and i want them to know it that i am.
I'm a kind of person who stands by his convictions...i never regret my actions or decisions. That being said...I wish i was better at planning things better...and have a bit of that thing they call "foresight". My situation right now, if viewed from a strictly objective point of view, is not that bad. I've gotten decent scores in my proficiency exams and applied to universities of my choice. I'm almost certain to get into a good university and pursue my Master's. But emotionally i'm just a train wreck! I'm not sure of anything and everything...a decision between tea and coffee perturbs me. I've been reading 4 books simultaneously because i can't seem to read 3 pages of one of them and not get utterly bored. My sleep patterns are ghastly and i oscillate between chronic insomnia and binge sleeping. Worst part is that i know all this has no external cause...i'm doing it all to myself.
Time to grow up. Start worrying about the future....acting blase' and nonchalant is over. Grow Up Idiot! Accept certain inalienable truths. Learn to Live, Live to Learn.
Pe@ce!
Barney once said..."When I get sad, i stop being sad and be AWESOME instead..True Story"
Amen
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2 comments:
"pichur toh abhi baki hai mere dost , abhi toh sirf trailer tha...."
But all said and done put aside the past 6months and start with something new ,anything.Make the most of what time you got.
To begin with make the this freakin' comments section as pop-up.
NO.
Never
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